I would have me emptied, and to remain behind.

A plastic bag gripping a winter tree, in the wind, and the sound it makes is empty.

You hear shoes down the hall, though you don’t live in a house. They sound as if they are approaching. The truth is, they are not getting any nearer. And you remember you have been left behind.

Reflections in a bowl, sometimes city lights, sometimes the stars, for dinner. 

You stop to read the graffiti, and the notes tapped to windows, posted from the inside facing out, written on, leaving no margins: I think this happens more so than it should, in poorer cities. 

I would have me slapstick readied, though I remain on board. I know the captain has burned the charts. I know the city birds are one big computer.

The notes in the windows sometimes include pictures: an angel with the living earth for feet, or burning trees with typeset for flames.

A skirmish of ghosts, folding in on itself, breathes its last. I am at sea. Without a bathing suit in the arms of stars.     

Is 
Pummeled
Dirt
And cosmic
Spat,

A shoreline
Of 
Alien coast,

More fictitious than thunder
Disappearing
Between the fingertips of the moon,

Is utter non
Sense 
Played without jest,

A box of giggles
Forgotten of hat,

A grave contest drawn in
The dust of stars.

You will not know the self.

The self is not enough. 

But you will burn nonetheless. 

Let your brain be the dust
Of yellow laughter

Like the meandering
Tattoos of the moon
Vanishing
Into shuffled cards
Into asteroid belts 

 The beginning stands 
  
 Like an old shadow
  
 Waiting for rags
  
 For rain in paper cups.
  
 Put the house up for sale. We’re starting over.
  
 I stand on an ineffable table.
  
 I borrow a folding chair and break the kitchen dishes.
  
 I mop the floor as if I was in a movie, even if I was a movie. 
  
 I botch my words. I am smitten. 
  
 Beauty wears the seams of transience absolutely, and the seams of the 
     absolute transiently. 
  
 The amble of gravity over the hills and through the voids 
  
 Bare knees howl.
  
 ~
  
 I will not have words for you
  
 I will not do right
  
 I will not do ill
  
 I will not truth
  
 I will not loathe  
  
  
 Just Saying

 Bike
 Night
 Home
 Through puddles of clouds,
 Across galaxies of yesterdays.
  
 The sky
 Orange peels defiantly orange!
  
 ~
  
 Death is butterflies
 And karate moons,
  
 Till we too are on our feet
 Whispering to stars. 

 There is an oblivion 
 Just next door
 Recently relocated.
  
 Here one visits 
 If one is willing,
 A returning
 From the future
  
 That’s been with you
 Before you were born. 
 A pumpernickel dawn
 Of abandoned hospitals.
  
 But some fool
 Cut off the wings.
 And misplaced 
 The spelling bee. 
  
 So, you hold up 
 The rainy bicycle
 With the perfume 
 Of your arms, and
  
 Into this pinch of creation,
 And pinched by creation,
  
 Till your knuckles have as 
 Many stars as a galaxy. 
  
 Laughter is a tree truck
 Without a ride home. 

 I know how the clouds fall into place.
  
 And it matters now most of all because it is over.
  
 Put all your tears back into the pockets of your brain, put back
 The shadows and fevers, put away the stubborn impossible
 Flowers, the trembling,
 The not yet beaten-
  
 The sudden is spent 
 Without preparation,
  
 Like a crescent of light that holds the moon 
 in place. 
  
 And it matters now most of all.
  
 We haul the ingenuity of our lives,
 In shapes of self that cannot keep pace.
  
 The pain is such that we will have to wobble home 
 Uncanny with bliss.
  
 And we are better for it. 
  
 This sorrow is ample
 And bright as it is blue,
  
 This sorrow is simple, 
 Hardly here and hardly true.
  
 And it matters now most of all.
  
 Against this city smothered in machines
 That pretends it’s not a ghost. 

 A certain carelessness 
 In a perfect circle
  
 It is too ripe and crude
 A coarse bird
 That fits in too well with the broken shore
  
 Unlike the polluting smoke of industry
 As it catches the closing beams of the sun
  
 A rosette triumph
 A too perfect charade  

 The sad of it
 Is lonesome sky
 The heart on a hill
 Frost on a barbed wire fence
  
 Where to begin to repair
 The midlife heart
 In what room to begin to laugh
  
 And when to say 
 This has passed
 And it will be one with us
  
 What hole is deep enough
 To make permanent the moonlight
  
 And if the stars 
 Come looking for alms 
 I will remind them
 I have only the sense
 Of infinity
 For purse strings  

 God jumps in first with a belly flop.
 But everything God does is beautiful, and this starts all of creation.
  
 Just don’t tell this to the Abyss.
 Not that you can. Be certain of this. You can’t. 
  
 Next the swimmers, tattoos of birds on their bodies, in search of fish,
 Along the roads in the air of October the first frost between their teeth,
  
 As the sky unfurls into handfuls of dusk. 
  
 At night, the moon is the butterfly on the city stoop,
 Crayon crossed out by crayon.
  
 The wind is the blueprint, said the parachute.
 And the Earth is our wind. The sunlight is both even and odd. 
  
 I purchase sheet music, and some boxes,    
 Because my head is cluttered
  
 With the snow 
 Falling into the street lamps,
  
 With unsighted poems and handfuls of dusk.
  
 What else can I do?
  
 In this city, and this poem like a periscope. And
 When beauty hurts, when it is ugly, ferociously so, and it will be, 
  
 Try a belly flop in the neighborhood pool. 
 Mouthing your every adieu to the Abyss.